Interesting

Lately just speaking to people about many different things and me being me have picked up on a lot.... Not that i can say it cause i do it as well but my goodness people get scared and hide from things they would like to take a chance on, Like i said i do it just as much but just seeing things and hearing things makes me wonder... people really just live life in fear sometimes and most of it has to do with rejection and what the bad out come will be.
Yes live life the way you want but don't regret things try not to have too many of those what if's hanging over your head. Yes you can fall flat on your face but you live.. you pick yourself back up and move on, Life can have it's hugely crappy things but it can also have it's wonderful things and taking chances can lead to amazing things.
If i hadn't of taken the chance of getting back together with Grant i would never of had Jack... Hell if i didn't take the chance with Grant i would never have found out what love really feels like and to be someone's world(granted it didn't last long but still) and if i didn't take the chance going for a younger guy with mick i wouldn't have my baby girl. Also i have met some amazing people just by going for it... Yes i have failed so many times by taking a chance but it has taught me so much.
There are a few things i am holding back taking a chance but everyone has those things.... i guess things are good how they are if they are going to change it will be later down the track i guess. I think being as sick as i got made me realise all the good things in my life again and it was just the right kick in the butt to get me back to chipper positive me! yes things still really need to be sorted out with crappy "work" but it will get sorted so i am gunna just figure out what next and go from there!!

The past week and a bit has been horrible me and the kids have been sooo sick but we are all finally on the mend which means i can get back to exercising and getting on top of my house work. Although my kitchen is clean and my fridge is spotless thanks to Jimmy cleaning it for em the other night lol. I am just glad we are all getting better seeing as i have my first markets with my sister this Sunday and next weekend is my sister 30th birthday and we are all staying in the gong for 2 nights which is going to be sooo much fun hanging out with everyone and just having fun! Gunna be a bit of a rough day Sat but i will get through and have an awesome time celebrating my sister turning the big 3-0!!!

Gunna go and find some food, i am a little hungry which is a massive thing right now LOL
love yas xoxo

Just i something wanted to put down

So i have always wondered.... why do we like/fall for the people we do. A lot of people say that have a type,if i had to say my type i would be putting down dickhead, yeas i have liked some decent guys but that was the case of we didn't click or they didn't see me that way.. the rest well they clearly all ended and turns out the guy was a dick and most of my friends and family didn't like him.
I really do think what am i doing wrong even though i am told by many that it isn't me.. clearly it is me a little seeing as i end up with this idiots. In a way i am grateful cause each time i learn something and realise even more so what i want out of a partner and that is just it i want a partner someone i am equal with but if my "type" is dickhead how am i to know the next guy wont be just that....
So if you had to say what your type is what would it be? Who are you attracted too? All the guys i have liked don't really have much in common or even have similar features... i guess only thing that is the same with most of they have gorgeous eyes.
All this dating stuff just baffles me some days and today is one of those days, I guess there is always something that you get drawn into with a person, I would love to know what people get drawn into with me other then my boobs!! I dunno all am all over the place with my thoughts atm but i just wanted to put this down not that there was much of a point to it...xoxo

Stuff,things and junk!

So lately life hasn't been all that great... yes life is about the little things but the crappy stuff is starting to effect the little joys in my life and that just doesn't fly well with me. I know things will get better it is just the matter of how much more crap will be thrown at me and when will it start t get better.
I have/am so sick atm and having sleep elude me so very often lately i have been thinking a LOT which yes in a  way is good but in a way bad, i have realised how badly i have screwed up with this whole "work" thing. I really was hoping i would bet getting on top of my finical situation but instead i am falling so very far behind i am almost to drowning point again....I am so grateful for all my family and friends trying to keep me positive and help me out i love you all so much and i have defiantly learnt a very lesson from this!!
A lot of my other thoughts have been on what is to come next year and how i can try and make it a better year then this one. Also thoughts about the past.. some about the awesome times and some about mistakes i have made. I know everyone makes mistakes that is life and if you don't how will you ever learn i just swear i am make mistakes then most and in everything in life... Jobs,money and especially guys. It seems the guys i like are either idiots that treat me crappy or they are wonderful but don't want to date me.... Hopefully that will change soon and i will find a wonderful man that treats me good and DOES want to date me!(here's hoping anyways) Having a man in my life isn't a must but it is more then welcome LOL having someone for me would be nice but i know it is a bit down the track that it will happen.
So i did my check up on the STAT dates and they have new ones now to find $160 and register to sit my test and hopefully apply and get into uni starting next year!!! If i can do that i will be so very happy i cant wait to kick start uni and know i am one step closer to becoming a teacher it is the biggest thing i want right now i think, just to know i will get there would be a weight lifted.This is all on whether i do ok in the STAT test that i get into uni if i don't i will try another way but any way possible i will be getting into uni!!!
I got a new album the other day and i am addicted!! It is Adele and i LOVE it!! She is fantastic and some of the songs are just amazing and i can so relate too! Just listening to it makes me feel better for some reason, mind you some of the songs make me think of certain people past and present.....

So update on mini man he turned 8 on Wed which i still cant wrap my head around! I have made his psychologist appointment i have to go on my own to the first appointment which isn't till Oct and then jack has his first appointment in Nov so a bit of a weight but least it is starting to happen. Also had his hearing tested and he has perfect hearing so he is screwed now cant get away with not listening lol. He is having friend issues again at school which explains his bad behavior again... I really wish he would just leave it and try playing with other kids although most of them don't want to play with Jack cause he is so different... makes my heart break knowing he doesn't really have any friends :( he is such a loving kid yes odd but still.... hopefully he will find some good friends soon that wont switch whether they like him or not.....

Not much to update on miss Lil pil still getting more beautiful and cheeky everyday, she is super sick like me which sucks she isn't coping all that well :( She is talking even more and figuring things out so bloody quickly freaks me out!!She is 17 months tomorrow.. it will be her 2nd birthday before i know it!

Well gunna go xoxo